Wherever you are when you read this, “Shalom’ and “May the Blessings and Favor of our Creator be on and in your life”.
To begin, I would like to welcome The Most High God, Father/Elohim/Yahuah; His Beloved and ONLY Begotten Son, Jesus Christ/Yashuah Ha-Mashiach/Brother; And His Holy Ghost/Brother. (1 John 5:6-8/John 10:34). GLORY BE TO OUR GOD, FATHER AND CREATOR!!
*I’ve added scriptures throughout my testimony to show and remind you this is ALL a part of Fathers plan. He will NOT bring us to it if He can’t bring us through it. Take heart, and in your patience, possess your soul. I love you ALL with the love of our Father and our Messiah! *
Like MANY of you, I have spent SO much of my life in darkness. I was blind, not seeking the truth. Always coming to the understanding yet running when I am faced with the reality. One that was uncomfortable and contrary to the one I’ve created for myself or presented to me.
On June 7,2023 (the day I was sent to this earth, but a few decades prior), my life changed. Many of you may/may not remember that day. But it was VERY significant. Allegedly, smoke from the fires in Canada came down into the U.S. It reminded me of a bible prophecy looking back. (Revelation 9:1-2). This is NOT the focus here but felt it was necessary to mention.
The life I lived and believed in came crumbling down. It was as if wool was pulled from my eyes. Not only were the streets of NYC quiet and empty, which was unusual, it was a presence stronger than the fog. Something heavy and silent weighed heavy on me when I went outside. Truly a ghost town but it was a calm peaceful covering and protection.
Most people have heard the saying “…they were kissed by death!”, this particular day I was kissed by life, Christ. I LITERALLY felt, after I cried out and received my commands on what to do next, my breath was taken away from me. Similar to what you hear or see in movies after a kiss. I’ve only experienced that once in my life, so I’d KNOW lol.
I remember checking myself before I left out and laughing about it. As I looked in the mirror, I realized I had on something old, something new, something borrowed and something blue. It shook me to my core. I remember hearing/feeling in my spirit Christ telling me, “I’m His now”. I said “YES” and became a bride of His church. (Isaiah 54:5/Revelation 19:7). It has been a war ever since. (Daniel 7:25/Psalm 119:69). Blessed are we who endure! (Matthew 24:13/Daniel 12:10-12). I’ve fought many fights in life and some not my own. But this is one that I am thankful and grateful to be a part of! Glory be to God!
MANY are called to stand up and fight yet few are chosen. These heed the call of the Lord and STOOD! (Matthew 22:14/Luke 1:68). Those of us who belong to the Kingdom of Light, will ALWAYS answer! (Moses 7:39/Psalm 80:18-19). We all have a choice to make! (Joshua 24:14-15/John 5:24).
My life was spiraling out of control. I was battling depression, hopelessness, addictions, fornications/adulteries, idolatry, anger, and more. There wasn’t a sin I probably didn’t commit. I remember thinking of the day I was attempting suicide, and that thought that led me to it in 2018, “Life should not be this hard”. I knew where I was going with that thought, BUT, I also KNEW our Father would not want that for me. (Jeremiah 17:7-8/Psalm 118:8). He saved me the time before, and spoke to me this time, and told me “Pray! Seek Him!” I did. (Jeremiah 29:12/Jeremiah 33:3).
If you have NEVER experienced defeats, burdens and the weight of strongholds beating you down, and everything going wrong, then you can NEVER understand this. It may NOT be for you right now, which is fine BUT in due time, you’ll come to this realization. THEN you’ll KNOW without a doubt, “GOD DID IT”.
If you’re wise and prudent enough to learn, receive this testimony, save yourself these defeats. I was on who had to touch it to make sure it’s hot or see if I could get a different outcome (lol). Yet Father has brought us out of places our own loved ones couldn’t reach or help us out. He cleaned us up, gave us a new name, a life, purpose and above all, a RIGHT to be called one of His own. (John 1:11-13/John 3:5-6/Romans 8:9). A son and/or daughter of THE MOST HIGH GOD AND CREATOR of ALL creation. Just like our Brother Yashuah. (Psalm 82:6/John 10:34-36). What an honor and a privilege this is. Glory be to God! Hosanna in the highest!
I remember telling our Heavenly Father, face drenched with tears, a broken heart and spirit, at the end of my rope, “If You help me, I PROMISE to serve You for the rest of my life”! I meant it! What else left? Nothing has worked for me up until that point. But that’s the purpose of this pilgrimage. Experiencing life without Him, is the ONLY way to come to the understanding that we NEED Him more than we’ve realized. (Matthew 11:27-30/Luke 5:31-32).
I’ve had highs and they were HIGH and I’ve had lows and they were low. So low, I was in HELL. But what came next was nothing I would’ve/could’ve expected. It was too simple. His commands to me were, “GET YOUR HOUSE IN ORDER”. (Ezekiel 36:33/Isaiah 1:16-20/Psalm 34:14). Most people would be upset. Seeking a grand, magical and extravagant experience to happen once they’ve declared and confessed Jesus Christ as their Lord, Savior and Master. If this is you, let me pop your bubble now. THIS IS NOT THAT BELOVED. Yes, it has happened in the days of old, but we have come SO much further in our Spirituality. We’ve matured in understanding far beyond those days.
BY NO MEANS am I referring to this “new age spirituality”. The tarots, crystals, crosses, witches/warlocks, yoga, voodoo/hoodoo etc., it’s DEMONIC! (Deuteronomy 18:10-12/ Leviticus 19:31/Leviticus 20:6 & 20:27). Even those fantasy games, Pokémon, etc. are doorways to witchcraft and demonic possession. THROW THEM OUT NOW AND REPENT! Imagine my shock when Father revealed that POKEMON was demonic/evil! I won’t say I’m surprised since this world has flipped ALL Fathers words and works upside down. (Isaiah 5:20-21). I once had a few things (as tarot cards I “played with” a few times). These things ARE gateways whether you believe it or not.
I also had a hoodoo/voodoo book with spells. I did one money spell that DID NOT WORK. I was still broke and the joke was on me lol). A Orisha book I never got around to reading as well. ALL PRAISES TO THE MOST HIGH GOD I get bored with things quickly and I didn’t do a deep dive into these things. Lord only knows where I’d be. When I am interested or committed to something, I’m ALL IN until I master it. No gray areas for me. But this is part of where my cleansing started, it’s an EVERYDAY thing, and the beginning of my training and preparation. Lastly, I kept my grandmother’s rosary beads after her passing. The Lord used a prophet to indirectly tell me to get rid of them. I had them for 5 years and forgot until that day.
That’s when HaSatan (the adversary) and his angels went to war with me. I declared war with him and his army when I chose to submit my life to my Lord, Savior, and Master. Choosing to walk this straight and narrow path IN OBEDIENCE. I strive always against this flesh to get it right and perfect my faith and walk. BY NO MEANS have I gotten it all together, nor is it a cake walk. You are going to have to make and be faced with some TOUGH choices. (Matthew 10:37-39/Matthew 19:27-30). The best part is it will cut away at everything you were told and taught to be. Then you can become exactly who you were CREATED to be. (Jeremiah 1:5/Isaiah 43:7). Shedding that excess baggage will get you through the test of discipleship so you can get to the glorious gates of Christ kingdom.
This walk takes TRUE humility, meekness and obedience. If you aren’t strong, and I don’t mean YOUR strength. But strong enough to seek the Father DAILY for HIS strength to get through these trials/tribulations how can you persevere? (Isaiah 41:10/ Psalm 28:7/ Isaiah 40:31/Isaiah 46:10/Joshua 1:9/Psalm 118:14). Fast and pray about it! (Hebrews 6:4-6/Ephesians 4:30). This ALONE dispels the “once saved, always saved” doctrine! (Matthew 15:9/Isaiah 29:3). This does not mean we will not have grace as we grow and make mistakes. (Romans 3:23/Romans 5:19-21). But it also doesn’t mean because we have grace we go on WILLFULLY sinning and making a mockery of our Fathers love and mercy. We are weak, fragile and but dust in the wind before Him. (Galatians 6:7-10/Hebrews 10:26-29/ Deuteronomy 32:4/Psalm 89:13-16).
He is GRACIOUS to ALL His Creation and is NO respecter of persons. (Acts 10:34/Romans 2:11). And you DO NOT want to mess around and find out WHY CHRIST IS THE GOD WAR! (Exodus 15:3/2 Thessalonians 1:8). Regardless if you choose obedience later (Psalms 40:8/Galatians 5:22-24) or choose to live a life to your flesh now (Galatians 6:16-21/1 Samuel 15:23), YOU WILL BOW DOWN SOONER OR LATER, MAKE NO MISTAKE. (Philippians 2:9-12). It’s the manner, extent, and experience that won’t be the same if you chose Him with your free will. Why wait? Do it now while grace is still available. (2 Thessalonians 1:7-10/Revelation 20:4-6/Alma 34:33-41).
*The Book of Mormon IS the record of the 10 Lost Tribes of Israel, and the 2nd Stick/Olive Branch mentioned in the Bible that Christ will open to judge the world when He returns. Fast & Pray to the Father for wisdom and clarity, search the scriptures and He will bring you to the understanding. I was told NOT to insert the scriptures for proof at this time, but you will see Shaphan the scribe was the Father of Lehi, who our Father brought from among Israel because of their wickedness. *
Since coming to this understanding, Father has moved MIGHTILY in my life. He has pruned the dead branches and roots from me (people, places things, behaviors. etc.). He’s moved me from my city, has been teaching me what it means and how to live a life of fasting. As well as preparing me for what’s to come next. (2 Corinthians 5:17/John 15:2). We ALL have an anointing and a calling on our lives that we MUST get into position to receive. (2 Corinthians 1:21/1 John 2:27). Father will NEVER bring us unprepared nor move in haste. (Isaiah 52:12/Exodus 23:20/Isaiah 45:2-3). I would know!
I have been pressed, stretched and shaken past what I thought was MY limits. (2 Corinthians 4:8-11/Psalm 42:5). And when I felt defeated and at times ready to give up, He’d come again with more grace, strength and power by His Holy Spirit. (Zechariah 4:6/Psalm 34:18). He ALWAYS had mercy on me and understands the weakness of our flesh. (Romans 9:15-18/Romans 8:3).
He promised to NEVER leave nor forsake us. And He has been faithful to every word and promise He has made to ALL. (Numbers 23:19/2 Thessalonians 3:3/Jeremiah 29:11). You’d think it was instantaneous, but rarely is it ever, depending on what HIS will is.
We wait on the Lord so that He may teach us patience, which I lacked tremendously. (Romans 8:28). Through it all, I gave thanks and praise IN ALL things. He doesn’t owe ANYTHING to you or me. (1 Thessalonians 5:15-18/Philippians 4:19-20). We as a whole, are a wicked, backsliding, perverse, stiff-necked, disobedient, stubborn people.
We do not deserve His grace. So how much more should we give thanks and praises? And still, HE loves us anyway. He doesn’t measure His mercy on our righteousness but because He is good, He gives it anyway. He patiently waits for us to do our part and have faith. We KNOW faith without work is dead! If you DON’T do what Christ did or at least strive too, do you really believe? Is your faith sufficient?
The VERY LEAST we can do is whatever He asks us to do like ANY parent would expect. (John 14:15/John 15:23). What other way to say thank you and show your appreciation for the One who formed you before He laid the foundations? Who keeps you daily with the things you NEED? Is forgiving and abounding in steadfast love, kindness and mercy toward you? He sent His ONLY Son to pay a price we would NEVER pay!
You are bought by His blood, which was the price! (1 Corinthians 6:19/ 1 Corinthian 3:16-17). There is NO better time than now to REPENT. Turn from your evil deeds and wicked ways! (Psalms 34:14). Accept Jesus Christ as your Lord, Savior, and Master! Be baptized in the name of The Father, The Son and The Holy Ghost for the remission of your sins and your forefathers’ sins. (Acts 1:8; Acts 2:38). Be numbered among His saints. You cannot hide ANYTHING from Father, He knows all and He sees the heart. (Jeremiah 17:9/Isaiah 29:15/John 3:20/Proverbs 28:13).
And this is where you find me today. I was called to give to you what HE gives to me. To what pleases Him. My desire is to honor my Creator, Father, Lord and Savior. This is the assignment given to me after much fasting and praying. With that being said, I will do my BEST to encourage and inspire you in this faith and your walk. All I can give you is the truth. (John 8:32/John 4:24). It is YOUR job to take it back to the Father in prayer and fasting out of a PURE heart. (James 4:3-5/Psalm 24:4-6). Ask if what I’m saying is of Him or not. It is MY job to prove what He says to me in scripture. (Thessalonians 5:21). Using His precepts. (Isaiah 28:9-10/Psalm 119:104 & Psalm 119:128).
When you DO NOT use precepts, you can make the Bible say whatever and the listener believe whatever you want (unless it is Christ words). HE IS OUR STANDARD, NO ONE ELSE! History repeats itself when we aren’t wise and prudent in the word of Father. (Daniel 9:5-11). NEVER take my word for face value, nor anyone else for that matter. Learn scripture so that you may discern Christ’s voice and the will of the Father. (2 Timothy 2:15/Proverbs 1:5). I recommend using KJV as it is the CLOSEST translation to the original text. If you’re a beginning English Standard Version (ESV) is a really good translation to start with. I did also.
We are weak in this flesh although the spirit is willing. Sometimes in our ignorance we may add our own twist to things that’s not of the Fathers will. And that can cause some to err or to sin. (1 John 1:7-9/Proverbs 28:13). Remember, Father is NOT the author of confusion and is PERFECT. (Number 23:19/1 Corinthians 14:33). Chances are the error came from the messenger or your understanding. If it’s your understanding you will need to repent, fast and pray but also ask for guidance, wisdom and discernment. Don’t forget to pray for the messenger as well. If it causes you to NOT keep or to transgress the commandments of Christ, it is NOT of Him. (1 John 5:2-3/Mark 12:30-31/Matthew 22:37-39 & John 14:15/John 14:23).
It is my desire to serve and to help as many people as possible. Those who WANT and KNOW they NEED to be saved. My dream as a child was to help people, I just never knew how. What better way than to guide a person into a TRUE relationship with our Father? Helping others multiply and bear good fruit? NOT religion or church, but RELATIONSHIP! Just as Christ came to bring us. (2 Corinthians 5:18-19/Romans 5:10). Continuing the work He started and occupying until He comes back to redeem us.(Mark 16:15-18/John 14:12-13).
If this is what you seek, then welcome, if not, I wish you well and Shalom brethren. My prayer for us all is to grow a deeper, unmovable, and unshakable faith. That we take up our crosses DAILY and follow Him, to find joy in tests, trials and tribulations. And if we have to go to the cross, GLORY BE TO GOD! For on the other side there is a crown of glory that awaits us. So, we’ll worship and praise His name with a good and cheerful heart in the face of death. Singing, “I have decided to follow Jesus”. HALLELUYAH!
M Prayer for us all: Thank You Father for all you have done, will do and are doing in us, with us and for us. Please, by Your mercy forgive us of all our sins that we have committed willingly and unwillingly, knowingly and unknowingly, sins of omission and commission, in the spiritual and material. Wash us in Your hyssop and make us white as snow. Cast our sins into the sea of forgetfulness before the accuser of the brethren. Thank You for Your love, grace, longsuffering, protection, and steadfast loving kindness that is abundant toward us. You said, the work You have started in us, You will FINISH, and we believe it. Help us to walk upright before our enemies in all Your ways. Put on the full body armor of Christ on us now. So that we may stand in power and withstand these evil days and what’s to come. Without it we will fall into the hands of our enemies who wait for our souls. Pour out a fresh anointing. Create in us pure hearts, steadfast spirits and clean hands. Renew our mind after the mind of Christ. Allow Your will to come into fruition in us. Let this be the altar call we all need to hear. To seek You with fear and trembling. I love You and I thank you for hearing this lowly prayer. I have faith that YOUR will, WILL be done in all things, in Jesus Mighty name. Amen/So Be It!
